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I Don't Want to Be a Ghost

by Angel on Over

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1.
Is this the One? 03:21
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Now I'm alive, I don't know what that means A treacherous path or a beautiful dream? An egg ripe to hatch or a slate to scrub clean? Oh, It must be a dream. Am I the one and is this the only Intertwined and always so lonely, oh A series of steps that will echo for ages Or ghosts behind curtains on cold, cosmic stages? A mind that's so chemical, stumbling through dazes, Has my mind grown foggy, or are these things mazes? Is this the one and am I the only Intertwined and ever so lonely, oh The traffic below buzzes like bees, The bodies between flea bitten and mean. Am I the one and is this the only? Intertwined, why am I so lonely?
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Dusty Moths and Golden Butterflies 02:44
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All I want to do is bring her home Getting tired of mourning, wandering round and evening alcohol All I want to do is set us free The scars and tattoos on her face are beacons if I've ever seen Oh, dusty moths and golden butterflies Are opening their eyes Oh, it's all bubbling up and rising like a loaf of bread inside The crystals showed me something full of magic Now every ray of light, it scatters into rainbows Glittering wrapped around the tragic Oh, dusty moths and golden butterflies Are fluttering in your eyes Oh, it is bubbling up and rising like a red balloon Inside the corners of your mind All I want to do is bring her home There's no reason for both of us to stay long Oh, golden moths and dusty butterflies Are shining in your eyes It's all bubbling up and rising like a red balloon inside
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There is a Pebble in My Shoe 02:30
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There is a pebble in my shoe, Is it time to fix that? I felt my skin burn pink and red, Is it time to go inside and draw the curtains? Never mind, never mind I have stung by bees All I want is in the flowers I don't know what I'm doing But something really needs to change Never mind, never mind I don't mind, never mind I don't mind, I know I will be alright I'm in the grass staring at the sky I don't really want to go inside
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Dark Inside 02:37
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Don't commit me to memory I'm just passing through Don't commit to follow, Don't commit to hollow out a place for me here Don't hollow out a place for me here And don't let it get too dark inside, Don't let it get too dark Because we could be spiders Or we could be bees And blood and flowers Could be all we ever need. We were born as strangers Memories just out of reach Still, you guard our footprints Our children will be forgotten, too So don't let it get too dark inside, Don't let it get too dark Because we could be spiders Or we could be bees And blood and flowers Could be all we ever need. (Glockenspiel solo) Don't let it get too dark inside, Don't let it get too dark.
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Go Back to Sleep 02:19
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We can't be sure The data suggests This is just a dream Go back to bed It will make sense When you fall asleep If love was the only thing that is real We would collapse beneath what we feel Or find ourselves numb and half asleep It will make sense when you Go back to sleep Go back to sleep We can't recall The data insists This is just a dream Or maybe a test It will make sense, Please go back to sleep Go back to sleep Sleep
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I'm Serious 02:36
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Quarantine Song 01:58
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If you're staying home, Hold tight to your soul Because the monsters in the closet Oh man, their teeth can hold When they bite, I feel the bleeding But it's all in my head, And the monsters that surround us, Man, I wish that they were dead Oh, I've been dreaming for a while But I never fell asleep Oh, if it isn't in the Bible, What gives you the right to preach? You should probably go, But I wish that you would stay, We both know that I can love you from at least 6 feet away If you think this is safety, I don't think your mind's this shaky, And your floors are not so slippery, You're not hanging from the roof All the places this will take us Fluttering hearts and stomach aches Is a small price to pay If this could be our ticket through. Oh, I've been dreaming for a while But I never fell asleep Oh, if it isn't in the Bible, What gives you the right to preach? If you think that this is safety, I don't think your mind's this shaky, And your floor is not so slippery You're not hanging from the roof If you think that this is safety, I don't think your mind's this shaky, shakey.
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Strawberries 02:35
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We are strawberries, don't try to cut me short We are small in the wild, But our seeds will travel Farther than ever before The light in the window will guide me safely home We are strawberries don't try to cut me down And we can shoot down our roots In this quiet little seaside town And with the water in the wind and the salt in our hair, We will climb fences and one day We will see the wilds out there The light in the window will guide me safely home But tart strawberries stir me up, I fly back to the woods We are strawberries, twisted in the shade Wrapped up in earth, soft, dark, and sweet With the smell of decay I have been warned if my anchor doesn't take, I'll drift away But I am secure in the tangle and the rain Of this warm summer day The light in the window will guide me safely home But tart strawberries tie me up, I fly back to the woods (My cat meows softly)
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Rosemary 02:08
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I love the child inside me, I can't give her what she needs The witch inside my mind Will be my mind until I can see Rosemary in the kitchen Smells so lovely as it dries The cat smells something sinister, I will not close my eyes I create the evil that I see And when I wake up screaming In the daylight, that's just me I create the evil that I see I create the evil that I see I remember piano keys and knives I'm hanging from the balcony And end scene with a smile The day that you came walking through the door It could've been much better than This spilled milk on the kitchen floor So be in the world but not of it, Be in the world but not of it, Because I create the evil that I see And when I wake up screaming In the daylight, that's just me I create the evil that I see Set the sailor in your body free, We can roam around and do anything we please Set the spirits in our bodies free We can run around and do exactly as we please We can run around and do exactly as we please
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The World is Innocent 02:01
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Hold Me Down 02:50
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Come on baby, why you gotta hold me down? I've been upright, oversight Staying up all night screaming into mirrors It's alright, it's alright to not be sure I've been standing at the cliff side Waiting for a late night fast track to heaven It's alright, why you gotta hold me down? Oh baby, why you gotta hold me down? Oh baby, why you gotta hold me down? Oh baby, why you gotta hold me down? Why do you have to hold me down? I've been rolling in the dirt, and singing in the mud That my mind is so fucked up, While I'm sipping on sunshine And seeds are rolling in their graves We'll be shivering in the Winter But dear, you're still an angel, Think you've gotta see heaven from a different angle, Let the light shine deeper, let the waters rise So baby, why you gotta hold me down? Come on baby, why you gotta hold me down? Oh baby, why you gotta hold me down? There's a garden in the battle, burn the rest The worms have fled and we are blessed With a harvest, a reckoning She's softly, sweetly beckoning, "Come on baby, why you gotta hold me down? Come on baby, why you gotta hold me down? Come on baby, why you gotta hold me down? Come on baby, why you gotta hold me down?"
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Oh, I 02:05
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Oh, I stepped to the forest Dream it up, and bring it into form Oh, I Oh, I've been leaving traces, I don't want to bother anymore Oh, I Oh, I, Oh I, Oh, I, Oh I Oh, I have many faces through the day But none of them are real! Oh, I step in my mind to wander Hoping to make sense of what is real, Oh, I Oh, I, Oh I, Oh, I, Oh I Oh, I'm so sick of aching For the sun that's breaking through the clouds Swaying with the trees And buzzing with the bees, I want to jump into the lake. Oh, I, Oh I, Oh, I, Oh I

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This album is full of my beautiful, mystical experiences, along with dissociation and derealization on my path into spirituality. The hardest part is deciding whether I'm losing my grip on reality, or beginning to grasp the scope of reality for the first time. No matter why we're here, I think we can all agree that the world needs more kindness. The plot twist is that the kindness really needs to be given to ourselves.

I hope this makes someone feel a little less worried, and a little better understood. A lot of the songs are still rough recordings, but I'm hoping to re-record them someday.

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released October 5, 2020

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Angel on Over Albany, New York

I recently changed my name from Aster and the Meteors to Angel on Over because I'm creating this music by myself.

Thank you for listening! This music has been recorded on my phone, so I'm hoping I can have it professionally recorded someday. ... more

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